To Busy To Listen

Ever have one of those mornings that you just wanted to pull the covers over your head and stay in bed all day.   This morning was like that for me.  I woke up on overwhelm.  We have just finished our third and final week of camp and suddenly I realized how far I was behind on so many things that needed to be done.  In the last week or 2 I have gotten calls from more people then you could imagine about their power wheelchairs not working.  Not to mention numerous families that I have not visited in way to long.   Most of my kids are doing well but there is one that I need to get into drug rehab and that has been laying heavenly on my mind as well.  There are so many people that I know who are in need of food, school sponsorship, wheelchairs,  vitamins or medical attention that it has my head spinning.  I am scheduled to spend a week in El Salvidor on a wheelchair distribution with Hope Haven next week, but what about the kids in my neighborhood that seem to think that this is their home?  Should I cancel that trip to spend more time with them?   What about my journal?   It has been over 2 weeks since I posted a new one and even that one was mostly written by some one else.  The longer I laid in bed the more my head seemed to spin and the more things I came up with that I simply had to get done or......  Or what?     Seems this world survived without me before I was here,  so was God suddenly going to let everything fall apart if Dick Rutgers was not here to do it now?  My good friend Pat often reminds me that there is only one Savior, and it seems that I was once again forgetting that.  He was the one that was crucified for all of us so why was I crucifying myself  for what I was not able accomplish.   Could it be that God also knew of the wheelchairs that needed fixing,  or of the people that needed his Love?  Hard to imagine but perhaps in my desire to do as much as humanly possible to ease at least a small part of the suffering that I see all around me, I was not listening to something even more important than Him saying to me "Go ye into all the world,"    Mark 16:15   Could it be that He was telling me, "Be still, and know that I am God:"  Psalm 46:10a  

This morning I spent some quiet time at home,  I thought about spending the afternoon writing this Journal but instead  9 of my kids, a few other friend and I loaded up my car and went to Guatemala City and watched a Soccer game.  We had a wonderful time and as far as I know the world did not fall apart while I was gone. 

Below is a slide show of some of the things that took place during the past few weeks.  Sorry for not writing more about them but I really had a great time today and tonight I want to spend the rest of the evening being still and knowing that He is God.

Goodnight:

Yours in Christ:  Dick